Slowly Coming Back

For the past couple of years, I've posted mainly out of responsibility.

A responsibility to not neglect my blog.

A responsibility to say I still have a blog.

A responsibility to you, my readers, who have followed my life for the past however many years.

It felt like a chore, like something I had to do...not wanted to do.

Now...

I feel like paying attention to my blog again.

I want to write more.

I want to post more.

I want to share more.

But of what?

The fact that I spent the past year homeless?

My daily struggles?

Loneliness?

Fighting for some sense of normalcy?

I've lost so much these past five years.

Five seems like a nice round number, huh?

Anyway...I"ve managed to hold on to my blog, but that's about all I've held onto.

I've lost a couple places to live.

I've lost family.

I've lost everything I owned.

And still, I perservere.

Still, I wake up every day with a smile on my face.

I say "Good Morning" to the couple of my friends that are close enough for me to message them at 6am.

So, what do I write about now?

What do I say?

How do I start over?

See, here...I'm starting to get into a routine. 

I sit all day at Denny's...mainly for the internet, but also because they're like family.

They are family!

It's hard to believe that the people that work at a restaurant were there for me when I needed...

Someone

or 

Something.

I didn't know I needed it, and I wasn't looking for it.  But it found me.

And...while I may have my bad days, it has been good for me.

I was joking with one of the night managers yesterday after there was a bad experience with a customer cussing at one of the servers.

The customer said "the customer is always right", and I mentioned, that I'm a customer...

They VERY POINTEDLY told me that I am not a customer, that I'm Marci...

(I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing!!!)

So, I"m slowly coming back.

To my blog, to my life, to being me.

Hopefully, we can look for more posts from me.

Hopefully, I will be more active here, and my other social media platforms.

And...maybe...just maybe...I will do a couple of videos in the future...I'm still camera shy though!