Yes, this is one of those posts.
Where you wait for hours until you're calmed down enough to think coherently...
where you're eyes are still puffy from crying the night before...
where you can't BELIEVE what you have been accused of...
and the people don't even have the audacity to tell you to your face.
Yeah...it's one of those posts.
See, I'm not worried about defending my integrity.
I'm not worried about confronting my accuser.
I AM PISSED ABOUT THE ACCUSATIONS.
First, let me say this. (Without names of course)
Everyone knows that I don't get along with my family. I've always been different from my family.
When my husband and I got married, we decided to make our family about US.
Not his family, not my family...but US.
We did this for a reason.
My family sucks! Big time!!!
They don't have the same values that I do. They don't have the integrity that I do.
My husbands family is just distant. And, we're OK with that. We always have been.
I DO NOT say anything negative about them. I have the utmost respect for them. ALL OF THEM.
It's just that we don't get along as well as other families.
Two incredibly strong willed women in the same room does not make for peaceful conversation.
With that said...I HAVE NOT, NOR WILL I EVER SAY NEGATIVE THINGS about a certain person.
Because of how far this situation has gone, I'm being general. I want it that way so that I can't be ACCUSED again of saying negative things about someone.
Now, the person and/or people that have accused me of this is someone that I know.
I wasn't told the exact specifics, but was told that I would see the accusations and documentation when the time came.
Now, for the other part of these accusations, which is totally appalling to me.
I was told that there were complaints from mutual people that I "share too much on Facebook".
Ummm...HELLO!!!! I'm a blogger and social media person. It's what I do.
If you don't like what I do, then please don't follow me. I'm not forcing you to read my blog.
I'm not forcing you to read my Facebook posts.
And I'm really not forcing you to interact with me.
IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I DO, THEN TALK TO ME...
YOU. WOULD. BE. SURPRISED. WHAT. COMMUNICATION. CAN. ACCOMPLISH.
I've lost friends because of unanswered text messages. I've lost friends because they don't want to talk. I've lost friends over simple misunderstandings. Every friend that I've lost because of this hurts me deeply. I don't let people into my life lightly because of what has happened in my past. When I do, I would walk through fire for that friend. To think that I would abuse a friendship is just heart wrenching. To just throw it away hurts me more than anything.
Which is why I spent all of last night crying my eyes out. Not only have I lost friends, but things in certain situations have gone way past simple drama. I'm leaving a group that I care very deeply because I don't like fighting, and would rather avoid it.
I'm sorry to rant, and I'm sorry if this seems disjointed, but this is how I feel. I'm hurt and I'm in shock.
Still.
Oh yeah, I was also told, not to share anything on Facebook...for those that want to accuse me...THIS IS NOT FACEBOOK. And the last time I looked, the first amendment gives us freedom of speech.
I haven't said anything specific about anyone. I haven't said any names.
So, go ahead...BRING IT. I WILL STAND UP FOR MY RIGHTS!
