tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556318409123644942024-03-14T05:58:18.219-05:00The Marci FactorA blog about everything in my life from farming, family, music, crafts, and everything else.Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.comBlogger336125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-91625021054077828162023-12-09T05:40:00.004-06:002023-12-09T05:40:51.201-06:00Updates and things...So what have I been up to?Not much...Since February, I've been trying to get a new wheelchair and braces to be more mobile...Yesterday I got confirmation that my wheelchair is being ordered....braces are still in the process with insurance. YES....it takes that long to get the things we need if you have Medicare.I'm still trying to find a job...I wish I could find something...anything to beMarcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-36460797948242037532023-04-07T19:00:00.006-05:002023-04-07T19:00:47.288-05:00Still Surviving and Trying to Get a Car So...I've been living...AND...Trying like crazy to get a car!!!How is that going you ask? Well...There was a fundraiser created for me.It started out great as people donated, but it's been stalled for around two weeks now and I'm really trying to get it going again. Here's the link if anyone is interested : http://spot.fund/pxwt7scI've also been volunteering at Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-10244619978983525422022-10-08T08:10:00.007-05:002022-10-08T08:10:51.693-05:00Almost Two Years So....where have I been for two years?Living life, letting life live me. Learning, losing, hurting, again...Living life.In these two years, I've yet again lost everything. (My fault.)But...I. HAVE. GAINED. SO. MUCH. MORE.More wisdom, more patience, more empathy, more friends. My ability to walk, such as it was is almost gone. We knew this was coming, but it Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-53916595537212040352020-12-03T11:36:00.000-06:002020-12-03T11:36:04.208-06:00Nowhere To Go So....I had a place. I paid my rent every month, as agreed.Landlord was happy with me...until the day before Thanksgiving. This started the Friday before, November 20, 2020.I got a call from my landlord, BJ, saying to be home between 4pm-5pm to have someone come look at the floors in the back rooms that I have not been allowed to use. I rushed home, and no one came by.Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-90757205515544344302020-08-27T14:34:00.004-05:002020-08-27T14:34:27.116-05:00I wish, I wish, I wish I wish.v..So many times, I say this...And so many times, I really wish.I wish my mom would talk to me.I wish I could call my mom and tell her about my day...the funny things that happened to me, the encounters I've had.I wish I was still married...it may not have been perfect, but it was my marriage.I wish I didn't have to worry all the time.I wish I was going back to school like everyone Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-59638047001225371682020-06-17T12:33:00.001-05:002020-06-17T12:33:16.281-05:00Is History doomed to repeat itself?I am angry.I am upset.And most of all, I'm appalled that there is so many mindless actions taking place that I just can't believe this.Do you not realize, that even though we have bad parts of our HISTORY, it is still there?Renaming military bases won't change the fact that they were once named after Confederate officers.It's like people are wanting to erase our history, our culture.And if you Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-23912623953976585922020-06-11T18:09:00.000-05:002020-06-11T18:09:05.570-05:00Random Acts of KindnessSitting at Denny's most of the day I see a lot of things.I see families having meals out.I see people doing business.I see dates.I see fights.I also see the compassion that a complete stranger will show for another person.We have servers here that are on a very tight budget, and yet...They will take out of their tips to buy a meal for a homeless person.They often feel bad for some customers...Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-86286950758704656952020-06-01T15:47:00.001-05:002020-06-01T15:47:48.540-05:00Slowly Coming BackFor the past couple of years, I've posted mainly out of responsibility.A responsibility to not neglect my blog.A responsibility to say I still have a blog.A responsibility to you, my readers, who have followed my life for the past however many years.It felt like a chore, like something I had to do...not wanted to do.Now...I feel like paying attention to my blog again.I want to write more.I want Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-64039833362902352642020-05-12T11:21:00.000-05:002020-05-12T11:21:24.196-05:00When You Wake Up Missing Someone...
I woke up this morning missing my Mom.
Not the woman who gave birth to me, but my Mom.
The one that raised me...
Loved me...
Sheltered me...
Taught me everything...
Showed me what a family is supposed to be like.
I miss Dandi.
She would be able to tell me what to do in times like this.
She would also be there to encourage me, and assure me that...
It.
Will.
Be.
Alright.
Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-15360884107378396142020-04-30T17:58:00.000-05:002020-04-30T17:58:43.255-05:00Going Stir Crazy in Nacogdoches
So, we have all confirmed that I have wanderlust and like to just go.
This quarantine, while I understand it's important, is killing me.
I haven't stayed this long in one place in a while and frankly, I am about to just drive to the forest to go.
There are so many things that I've wanted to say about this, but I don't want to piss anyone off and I really don't want to start debates...so...Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-38985281725300342312020-03-25T10:24:00.001-05:002020-03-25T10:24:40.442-05:00I wish I could craft
So this quarantine has everyone staying home.
What are you doing to pass the time?
Me, I really wish I was crafting...I would love to be sewing right now, anything.
This makes me think of what people did for entertainment 100 years ago. They didn't have all the social media, they didn't have TV's, they just had each other.
I've found a few people that have been extremely Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-58323778008534769152020-03-24T06:58:00.000-05:002020-03-24T06:58:58.889-05:00How do the Homeless "Stay at Home"?
This has really been bothering me.
There are so many people that are out there helping others, no matter how small that is.
I am giving rides to a friend that just got a job, and is trying to keep it.
However, this is keeping me from being able to go to the local homeless shelter, because they demand that I be there by a certain time, and that runs into the time I get my friend from work.
Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-81904236920854874402020-03-10T13:48:00.000-05:002020-03-10T13:48:26.208-05:00An Open Letter to Marsha Cook**I had written this and was going to mail it to you, but then figured I would let everyone know exactly how I feel, and exactly what is going on. I will not hide from you anymore.**
Dear Marsha,
First, this letter isn't going to say much because I know you're going to give it to Nathasha and she is going to post it on Facebook and ridicule me. So, if you want to talk to me, Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-86273676277432932702020-02-21T13:27:00.000-06:002020-02-21T13:27:25.330-06:00Communication Problems with Stubborn Family
Stubborn??? That's the least of it.
See, I've grown up, I can be professional, I CAN FORGIVE...
which is more than I can say for my family.
The past six months have been heartbreaking.
They have been emotionally scarring.
They've been, for lack of a better word...
HELL!
What kind of person would bully their own child?
What kind of person would instruct their caretaker to Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-34632509679653469552020-01-20T16:27:00.000-06:002020-01-20T16:27:11.509-06:00Advice from Friends, More Decisions and Update
So, it's been a tumultuous couple of months, and I have a feeling it's just beginning.
I'm facing a few more difficult decisions, and we all know how I am with decisions...
eeny meeny miney moe is my best friend!!
Soooo, I guess I should give you an update also...here goes.
I'm stuck where I'm currently at because I was headed out and got a flat...it was close to another friend, so I Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-56493938554586956672020-01-14T17:01:00.000-06:002020-01-14T17:01:03.149-06:00Decisions to be made!
So, I've made some decisions.
One.
I will not let my family make me live in fear.
I will not shut down my blog, and I will not let them dictate my life by making it hell.
Instead, I will keep my blog, and social media.
I will continue to live my life, even if it is obscure, and unplanned.
See...I don't exactly have to work.
I can get by on what I get every Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-80228549027475998222020-01-01T15:30:00.000-06:002020-01-01T15:30:30.566-06:00Is it Good-bye?
With everything that has happened in this past year, I am sad to announce that I will not be posting here as much.
You see, with a family that stalks you, and wants to make your life hell, it's best not to do social media.
HOWEVER...
Be on the lookout for a new blog, I've already got the name and will be getting the domain next week...unfortunately I will be unable to post Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-70543447311606480392019-12-21T22:53:00.000-06:002019-12-21T22:53:06.647-06:00Winter Solstice
On this the shortest day of the year, I would like to reflect on everything.
It's been a rough year, but one where I've learned a lot.
I've learned that I'm made of much sterner stuff than I though.
I've learned that family doesn't change, no matter how much you want to believe it.
I've learned that there is kindness in strangers.
I've learned that it does get cold, very cold in Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-22214611428751201822019-12-12T13:43:00.002-06:002019-12-12T13:43:48.778-06:00Why must family be like this?
You know....I'm always amazed when I see families stick up for each other...
mine has always been cut throat and vindictive.
I grew up having to hide anything of value to me, hide my feelings, hide anything that made me happy.
I grew up scared that one or both of my parents would take away anything that I enjoyed...so I learned not to show joy in anything...and sometimes that has hurt me, butMarcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-59670981164898959882019-12-08T13:42:00.000-06:002019-12-08T13:42:19.934-06:00There is so much to say
There is always so much to say, but where do I start?
There is always so much to say, but sometimes it's just s sentence or a paragraph.
There is always so much to say, but who would want to read it?
These go through my head all the time, and yet there is so much more I want to say. Sometimes, I want to publish 3-5 blogs a day, and sometimes less...sometimes more.
Does this blog helpMarcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-33610205372670859152019-12-05T11:02:00.000-06:002019-12-05T11:02:17.640-06:00Starting Over
I've had this discussion with pretty much everyone...
So, before I go any further I want everyone to know I'm FINE!
I'm OK in my van, I promise!
Now, besides the fact that I have to start over yet again, I've gotten almost everything I want to keep out of my moms apartment.
Living in the van right now is tight because I still have stuff that I need to drop off at certain places, and then Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-64356513210956835232019-11-28T23:58:00.000-06:002019-11-28T23:58:11.255-06:00How I spent Thanksgiving
I wanted to wait to post this because it's been a full couple of days.
I met new family today, and was amazed at how friendly and welcoming they were.
My adopted dad took me to his other adopted son's house and I met his family...who are now my family.
On the way there, I wanted to listen to Rich Mullens, and my daddy said he had never heard me listen to Christian Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-13720417589256454482019-11-18T07:50:00.000-06:002019-11-18T07:50:07.433-06:00Who is Marci?
You know, I just want to write. I don't have a clever title for my blogs, or anything like that.
This is the telling of my experiences, and my life.
And, sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that it just needs to be said.
Yes, I've neglected my blog for a while because I wasn't sure what to write, and I was trying to figure out what direction I wanted my blog to take. So, I'm not Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-63493367925000655852019-11-17T10:00:00.000-06:002019-11-17T10:00:05.263-06:00Life updates...
So, since I've been neglecting my blog, I figured I would give you an update as to what's been going on.
I've moved into my van, for several reasons...the main one being I'm tired of fighting landlords for things that are required by law to be there anyway. This isn't exactly giving up, it's just choosing which battles to fight.
My van is my safe place...this may sound funny, but I Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755631840912364494.post-36566689458790970452019-11-16T09:34:00.000-06:002019-11-16T09:34:37.458-06:00It's Time....
So....
I've been vague about my past and my present.
I've tried to show a brave face and keep the past there...
But things have a way of coming back to you...especially if you try to keep them buried.
You can't escape your past at all....not one little bit.
I forgave...that's not the problem.
The problem is people keep repeating the past...even if they don't try Marcihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06575883439594265488noreply@blogger.com0